PLACETOHIDE.NET

That’s how long it’s been since I updated this blog, and really, the site at all.

I could give you excuses, but if you’ve been on this planet and in this fandom for the past year, I think you’ll understand why. In addition to everything happening there, my own life for the past few years has been… busy. Weird. Changing. I feel like all I’ve done is give apologies yet not devote any more time to the site.

So what now? What does 2021 hold?

Well, I know what it holds for me personally, but none of those are things that will make it easier to update the site. For the fandom… who knows. I don’t blame anyone who has made the choice to leave entirely, but the reasons I created this site still hold true. The reasons I cling to hanfic as a “place to hide” when everything else is going wrong, even with the band themselves, holds true.

I can’t guarantee an increase in updates, but I can guarantee this site will continue to exist, and not just because I re-upped the domain name registration for two more years just a week ago.

I’m ashamed to look at my last few posts and see that they all relate to the beginning of 2019 and the big plans I had for PTH then.

As last year began, I was just beginning to face the fact that my health issues weren’t something easily fixable, but were in fact something chronic I would be stuck dealing with. It made me feel depressed and unlovable, but within just a few months I was proven wrong about the latter.

All of that took up a lot of my time, as did some big changes at work, and as all my readers can see… hanfic had to take a backseat to dealing with my real life. I guess that’s just the sort of thing that happens when you’ve been running the same website for an entire decade. Bethany at 22 was very different from Bethany at 32.

What does 2020 bring for this site? It’s tough to say. One thing I can guarantee is that it will remain open. I have no intentions whatsoever to abandon it or hanfic entirely. But I obviously also can’t guarantee how often I will update.

That said, I have updated the trivia and timeline, and I have updates planned next for the directory and a few of my fics. So keep your eyes peeled for all of that!